an ordinary life

This is probably the last time I will have need to use this logo. On Thursday evening I decided to resign as Team Leader of my team on UK scrappers. It wasn't an easy desicion by any means, but one I have been thinking about for a while now. So on Thursday I did it, and as I was doing that, I realised we have so much going on over the next few months it was probably best to quit altogether. So I did......

It's hard being team leader, most of the time it's cool, it's good fun; but it is demanding, very hard to think up new challenges and swaps and stuff and keep the team motivation and morale high etc etc. Things have been a bit stale just of late and I did feel the time had come for me to let my "babies" fly the coup and let them go it alone, inject some new spirit within.

So Ali will take over I think, she will do good, her confidence scrapping wise has grown over the last few weeks especially and she will go far I am sure - I would like now to wish her and the rest of the team all the best.

I have made firm friends within the team, that will not change, I have shed many tears over the past couple of days over the result of this decision, butI think those tears have been mixed up with other emotions going round my head too at the moment.

I have toyed and toyed with myself have I done the right thing? when Ali posted that she was going to go and hunt for a new teammate it was all I could do to stop myself saying NOOOOOOOO. Although deep down I know that I have made the right choice , for myself and the sake of the team and my freinds and indeed my family. The team may not see it now but they will in time.

I am going to carry on with the team cj, it seemed most wanted me to stay on that, and I am happy, I like doing cj's. First post is on tuesday, mine is almost ready to go (the handbag from earlier).

Today we went dancing as usual, I tried to do some writing in my notebook for the BPS class, but it just wasn't coming together in any way whatsoever, guess my mind is a bit preoccupied right now.

This afternoon I went for a walk on the tops, with the girls, I took some panoramic photos of the views to go together with my journalling about it - I will get that done next week.

I don't need to worry about points now - I can just scrap for myself!! Which I have to say is very hard after over fifteen months of being in the same team; today I completed my exploding box and I thought - "there's 50 points bagged" and then I thought "no it's not LOL"

So next week I will continue with my blitzing campaign and try and get a few bits done that I have got behind on.

I received the map of the catchment are for our potential new high school - it's huge!!! But it gives us a start on locations to look at in the future.

Just need to get to May, and get this probabation period out of the way!!!! Then we can come out of no-mans land and get on with our lives again.